February 2012
23 posts
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If I channeled all of my anxiety, confusion and frustration into working out, I’d be Shaun T status by now. But all I’m doing is flooding people’s Tumblr feeds lol
“I like a girl who is talented. If she can show commitment to whatever talent she...”
– I don’t mean to brag but, this is my own quote lol. #randomthoughts
I need to stop trying
And let these things naturally unfold themselves. I’m done with being Ted Mosby all the time.
“Girls are confusing, that’s why I date boys.”
– Scottie’s response to my love life.
We have the courage to say what we feel when we're...
I wish I had that same courage when I’m sober. Although some things are better left unsaid, I’d rather regret what was done than what I was too much of a coward to do. Until I gain that mentality, life will continue to be this complicated game full of second-guessing myself.
People misconstrue the meaning of "community" and...
and it PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF.
TETRIS
All of my work just keeps stacking on top of one another.
Once one issue is out of the way, another immediately replaces it.
Regardless of how hard I try, sometimes things just don’t match and I’m completely fucked.
I feel like there isn’t enough time in the day, and that I’m forced to move faster and faster to get by.
I’m just looking for that special piece...
Lesson of the night/week
It’s nice to be ambitious and have that end goal in mind, but never neglect the actual process. Being too consumed with the idea of having that final product, you have a tendency to forget the little things that get you there, and how beautiful those small aspects in between really are. Instant gratification isn’t the answer, and if that’s too difficult to comprehend then maybe...
No more second guessing and being miserable
I’ll just play this shit by ear and see where it takes me. What’s meant to be will be.
In my ideal world
I would buy you a dozen roses, and write down a note for every single one of them about what I like about you. I would probably serenade you via video, and put it up online for the whole world to see, despite knowing that I can’t sing. I would cook you dinner, knowing that I can’t cook for shit and may probably end up giving you food poisoning lol. I would be your support system, and...
Coming Full Circle, Forever Thankful
Finished my interview with my Dad a couple minutes ago for my Asian American Studies life history paper. He basically told me every little piece of his life which lead up to him living in the states. I’m not going to lie, I already used him for a very similar paper in my other AsianAm class, but this time was different (for me at least). Towards the end of the phone call I got emotional...
The race ain’t for the swift, but for who...
Sorry, but wait your turn
Could you hurry up, _______ hasn't even talked yet.
Me: Sorry, I'm doing a lot for this PCN.
God is seriously testing me right now
I thought life was already tough with everything going on: school, PAA, PCN, my new job, etc etc. With all of these shocking turn of events in the past few days I feel as if my responsibilities have increased tenfold, and it’s especially difficult when this isn’t a result of my own decisions but on others; specifically other people that I deeply care about. I don’t blame them for...
First day at work
I did not expect to work today at all, I thought I was just going to fill out paperwork and start tomorrow. My manager just straight up told me that I’d be closing shop and I was like, “Fuck it, let’s go!” So I was bored out of my mind from 6-7:30 until COW showed up, and then hella customers just started to show up afterward (good number of them PAA Core and Berkeley...
A complete, metaphorical conversation
Mtess: I miss cupcaking
Me: Oh yeah? Wanna bake some cupcakes then? I'll provide the flour.
Mtess: You're supposed to say that you'll provide the sugar!
Me: But the flour is the most essential part. Without it, there's nothing.
Mtess: But the sugar makes everything taste better.
Me: But the flour is the foundation.
Mike: You know what, he's right. He's thinking of the big picture Mtess.
Mtess: Hmph!
I have no right to be frustrated
I’m surrounded by good company, and I have an awesome girl bestfriend/co-writer/director. Things always happen for a reason right?
Why do I even try
I’m playing a game where I don’t know if I even have a shot at winning. Or maybe I’ll just strike out like every fuckin’ time in the past.
January 2012
32 posts
Thinking, just thinking...
Had lunch at the food court at Bear’s Lair and sat down facing Zellerbach. After I was done, I just listened to music and just kept staring at Zellerbach. There’s so much to do, and so much potential. These next 2 and a half months are going to be beautiful.
Thanks for the affirmation
“Dude you’re a fuckin’ visionary. Imagine the possibilities if we had you work with us.”
-A.M.
Seriously?
Taken from the Pil Senator application: 6. If you were a superher@, what would your super power be and why? (25 wordsor less) I don’t know what to say, I’m just laughing.
On A Mission
I’ve been on and off Insanity for months. But now knowing what we’ll be doing for PCN Trad this year, my commitment towards fitness has never been this strong. My brother will also be watching me do PCN for the first time this year, and I feel that I have something to live up to considering that he’s a legend at UC Davis and their PCN. I WILL LOOK GOOD ON APRIL 15.
Training Day
“If you have a girlfriend you’re more than welcome to let her chill here when you have downtime.”
-My manager
SHIT I WISH
At first I was flattered
that I got nominated for Pil Senator. But then I saw that everyone and their mom were getting nominated.
Getting into that routine
Woke up hella early
Got some coffee (brought my hazelnut creamer in my bag hehe)
Went to my 8am discussion
Actually had a short conversation with my professor after 9am lecture
Called my future boss/manager, and ACCEPTED MY JOB OFFER AT DOMEFITS
Did some reading
Class again
And now here I am, about to do some insanity.
Isn’t productivity beautiful?
Artists don't ask themselves, "Hey, I wonder what...
just saying.
Sometimes I question
whether we follow these “politically correct” statements because we firmly believe in them, or because we’re catering to the ideas of individuals who 1) are no longer going to this school AND 2) told us that we should think the way they do. I respect the purpose behind these ideas/mentalities, but it just disappoints me to see people make such a big fuss about catering to the...
Unlocking my inner beast
My life is going into overdrive mode right now. 16 units of major/minor classes, a potential job, PAA responsibilities, community project, community dinner, writing/directing PCN Story Arc, PCC, and keeping up with working out. I know a lot of folks around me have it worse (y’all are my motivation), but this is by far the most work I’ve taken on at one time. Needless to say, I’m...
True Story
I’m like the only one in my family who’s single right now. Everyone is either married or is in a relationship. You know it’s all bad when your grandma asks where your girlfriend is, especially when she’s spent the last 10 years telling you to “stray away from girls.” I swear, I was like 9th wheel at Christmas. I guess I’ll just hang out with my nieces and...
What you won’t do, do for love
Dammit
This past weekend, as well as getting into my sociology class, made me realize that I actually do NEED facebook. Full deletion proved to be problematic, so I’m gonna go through with these self control applications. Damn you Mark Zuckerberg!
Is it real love? You might be the one I’m...
Back to simplicity
I feel that human interaction is worth a lot more than a simple wall post, instant message or like. I miss the days where communication wasn’t that simple; where catching up with someone meant calling that person or making the time and sacrifices to see them personally. I also miss the times where we weren’t so updated with everything in life. Sometimes ignorance is bliss, and finding...
Fuck money
I have no idea how I’m going to pay off these “mandatory” expenses in the next few weeks. I hope this business my friend has going on is legitimate, or else I’m going to have to end up bitching at people.
Over time, I’ve been building my castle of...
